wonderings

y do the poor, week, ill & old struggle to survive
yet we mediocre beings give up easily?

because we are mediocre.

wonderings

y do the poor, week, ill & old struggle to survive.
yet we healthy beings give up easily n complain so much?

Me is not a Man with Boobs. TQ

best fren commented so.

a cat name Tikos

a sick kitten came wondering into office.
suddenly im given the responsibility of taking care of it.

rasa macam tiba2 pregnant dan beranak.

im not ready but it not going away.
tapi i tak sampai hati jugak lah.

i name it Tikos.
sbab its malnourished tubuh.

sad sad set.

talk b4 u think (whn u r sad)
think b4 u talk (whn u r upset)

youthful dreams

whn we were young, we've dreams.
we talk, we think about it or dream about it.
n we dream that one fine day we can achieve these dreams

but somehow along the line of chasing our dreams, we end up straying from'em
life catches up with us. sneaking up at us at the most unnoticeable ways.
we lose focus.

but the journey continues.
for better or worst. we move along.

i'm trying to remember the things that i've set out to do.
but it seems that memory is slowly failing me.

how far away m i from my dreams?
how far are u away from ur dreams?
will we ever achieve it?
or do we still dream that same dream when we were young?

questions that can only be answer 20 yr later probably.
but by then, is it too late to realize its too late?

whenever i feel like giving up...

Whenever i feel like giving up,
i see kids begging at pudu using a mc'd disposable cup....
i feel that life is unfair but secretly im glad that im luckier.

Whenever i feel like giving up,
i see parents squeezing 2 kids on a bike with them...
i feel im lucky im driving a car. rain or shine, i still have a roof above me.

Whenever i feel like giving up,
i see an very old uncle holding his wife's wrinckled hand, pacing the streets in the hot sun...
i feel im blessed, im physically fit to walk independently.

Whenever i feel like giving up,
i see lorry drivers zooming with the windows down because the vehicle they are in has no air-con....
i think lifes still good for me.

Whenevery i feel like giving up,
i see the old indian auntie pushing her disable husband near my housing estate.

they are often seen near the low cost flats. i presume they stay there.
ive seen her sweeping the leaves off the roadside.
he, holds a garbage bag on his lap.
sitting there, all ready to help her.

i think they are bless to have each other.

numb

is trying not to feel....

always the frens that know u best

i laughed out loud over yamcha session one day with some buddies that i grew up with
although after secondary school, we each moved on to do other stuff
but we still meet up if i go bk hometown, say 4 mths once?
ths are frens that still know me d best.

so back to the story...
i was laughing so hard...my frens were silent. they were shocked.

"its been so long since we last heard you laugh"

i went bk that nite feeling very down.
i know my frens sense that im not happy & they are worried.

me? im also thinking..."when was the last time i truely laughed?"

i guess its time to rethink n ponder on life n its purposes.
i hate letting others worry abt me. hate that feeling. feels incompetent.

my poker face

im sorry that the way i look is bothering you.
muka i memang macam ni.

if u are using the way i look as a judging measurement
whether u can or cannot work with me semata-mata how i look...
it only goes to show how shallow u are.

yes, everyone is entitled to their own opinion
but you can keep your opinion to yourself.
i dont need to know u tots.
& ambik kesempatan to bitch abt me to my best fren while we just had a glitch is so not cool for u age.
Yes, you tua tau tak?

im not gonna change to be more mesra u know.
muka i mmg macam ni.
im sorry i cant fake it.

faking kills.

ABCs....i like....yum yum....

n so i heard

A called B to ask B to ask B's gf, C to stay away from A's gf, D.
A is not happy that C & D are going out behind his back.

B was furious so B told A to go talk to C himself.
A said he has.
so B told A that he has no interest in meddling in A's personal business & he has nvr and will nvr date C.

A apologized and hung up.

* oh did i mentioned that ABCD are all girls? woo....... jeng jeng jeng :)

Wedding Bells

after my best frens ROM dinner...the 1st time my sis asked whn i got home was....

"How?got get to know boys or not?"

Apelah. i go for fren's dinner not to match make or sell myself la!!

!@%^%&^&*(*(*#%$%*&^*@!!

Uncle taxi singapura

chirpy uncle taxi was on the way to drop me off at golden mile plaza,
where all the buses leave for m'sia

uncle taxi was concern.
he said "girl u must be very vigilant in malaysia"

uncle taxi made it sound that m'sia is a country of terror
what uncle taxi did not know is... i'm from malaysia.

uncle taxi should be scared of me
u nvr know..i might kill him u know...since im from m'sia

but uncle taxi...what does "vigilant" mean?
very deep...looks like my england is not as powderful as uncle taxi singapura.

shellfish who sells fish is a selfish shellfish

Shellfish who sells fish sells selfish shellfish

pls stop talking....

woof woof...
meow...
raff raff
meow...
ra ra...ROAR!!

People, QUIET PLEASE!!!

similarities of Cena Ah peks

Other then a round belly, all cena uncles have another similarity.

if they ever go to a roadside hawker/mamak, they like to park right next to their table.
even if there is lots of parking space available.
even if its just a kancil they are driving
(there's nothing to parade about kancils & no one will be interested to steal or even scratch it)

its so that they can take less then 10 step to shuttle between table n car.

i guess that explains y they have a big fat round belly.

saturday afternoon

sat at a kopitiam, discussing politics with an auntie that spends most of her time in Hong kong. She looks no older thn 35 but in actual fact is in her mid 40s.

as auntie as she is, some things that she says are so true.

malaysians are an international laughing stock in the political arena. we are backstabbing each other, playing the racial cards, spending more time on petty stuff like shooting nude photos of politician......
instead we shud be united and get our acts together to pull thru this stormy times.

hmm...malaysia malaysia. when will we learn?

round 1

M : do u know where Tessensohn road is? i might need to pick up a camera

A : Video camera? Pls la, ive also...use mine.

M: Ey, that's a professional video cam im renting la. For drama shoot kind. i dont know what to
get for Li so though i will shoot her ROM for her. im just worried that home video cam colour
not nice for night outdoor.

A: Give Angpou best la..good fren is abt S$100 standard in Singapore. u a lady, dont do this at
your friends wedding la...maybe got potential suiter, u can scare a guy off. Wear nicely n help
in other way. Give angpow or get her vouchers for shopping for homestuff. I can help u get
Takashimaya or Isetan Vouchers.

M: OMG! Ame's can u stop tryin to sell me off. buek! buek!

A : not selling u off...quite scarry to be alone when 60years old.

M: i will get a pet!

A: whose gonna take care f you when sick?

M: Maid or nurse

A: C u next Wed. Remember to check if mom n dad wants to come.

*Round 1, i win! :)

made an uncle smile

took a cab in spore.

while i was about to alight,
uncle abdullah the cab driver tu said "thank you"
i waited for my change n replied "terima kasih"

he smiled n said thats like 2 times more then thank you.
i smiled n said "selamat berpuasa" while i got off.

he was over the moon. :)

when i met u, u were already broken - KL

we never change, we adapt.
but in the process of adapting, we are broken.

debat hantu berbangsa

a fren replied:

hantu is actually a fragment of ur own imagination

so ur culture and views are embedded in the persona of a ghost

now im more confuse

he said orang melayu takkan nampak hantu cina

maksudnya, in d after world pun kena racist ke?

hantu pun berbangsa ke?

habis tu, kalau chinese muslim akan nampak hantu cina ke?

so kalau i pausa, tapi i chinese i akan nampak hantu cina jugak?

what if i pernah nampak hantu yg disguise as a malay fren?

explaination "pakar hantu":

in the real world people are (racist)

if u nampak hantu melayu, thats because ur life principles dah allow malays to be part of it

its not the ghost

its u.

i wonder m i irritating d shit out of my frens by posting such a question? tapi its really bothering me. i sound like a whiny kid. i know im annoying d shit out of myself though

my colleague mintak i balik rumah terus. he thinks im mentally unwell to work

hantu pun berbangsa ke?

Muslim kata kalau bulan puasa, takde hantu.
tapi ikut lunar calender, ni Hungry ghost festival month.
it's when all hell gates are open & ghost come out to party. wuhooo.....

so maksudnya ape?
hantu melayu tak keluar tapi hantu cina berkeliaran?

hantu pun berbangsa ke?

im suppose to make magic

im really scared. im not sure if i can do this.
dear god...pls help me survive.

langgar kereta sendiri

Pandai!

how many women it takes to change a light bulb

none.
cause most of them cant figure out if its a light bulb issue or a starter issue.

i shall continue to bathe in the dark for the next few weeks while i ponder on the matter.

only in malaysia

makan Subway, dengar Rock Kapak
hanya di Malaysia. :)

ego = low self esteem

we always associate the word ego wf guys ie "the Male Ego"
but what about females who are also egoistic?
haven't got a word for that i think.

so does this mean that the female equivalent of ego would better be describe as "low self esteem"?
after all these 2 words seem quite similar in many ways.
in fact, its just a difference of a thin line.

so ego for female = low self esteem?
set.

now to find a male equivalent of a "slut".

rempit merdeka yg tdk begitu nasionalistik

date: aug 1st 2009 - 12.30am

destination: on the way home from work

saw: rempit yg amat nasionalistic. tgh va-va-voom dgn mengibarkan nasional flag

reminds me of: adik kawan yg merupakan ah beng motocycalist ckp: "fun la wei, its only this month u can remp it and police will let u go if u've a flag. u just nd to say merdekaaaaa!!!"

what would a foreigner think: wow, malaysians are really nasionalistic. they love their country.

what do i think: ah bengs and rempits lebih kurang je. sama-sama suka mengibar jalur gemilang bila bulan merdeka.

but thn again...who cares what i think.

plam readings

what happens if u know how to read palms n realize that u've used up all ur luck?

women of the 21st centery

Dessie said my 1st impression to him was i had a veil.
a vibe that separates ppl.
all i wanted is work.

n im too independent
im the strong headed kinda women
that will scare man away.

ive always despise bimbos.
but now im suddenly feeling uncomfortable with Dessie's remarks.
damn.

giler glamour

this year itself, 2 great people have pass on.
MJ & Yasmin.

never have i felt so affected by a celebrity's passing
Yasmin is a jewel to all Malaysian.
despite the difference in race & background,
everyone seem to know who Yasmin was.

even my sis in Singapore texted me to check how badly affected are we
we as in ppl part of the industry.

it saddens me n makes me wonder "siapa lagi yang akan memperjuangkan racial harmony dlm industri ni kalau tanpa Yasmin"

i dont know her personally but i like her works.
but i really do hate ppl who use her as a glamour factor.
im especially upset that there's this talent that posted on her facebook about attending Yasmin's funeral.
attending someones funeral is not something to boost about.
jeez. pls. respect those who have passed on and respect those who are alive.
most importantly, give youself some respect!
using important or known ppl as a factor to scream " look at me!" is so not cool.

when was the last time i really wanted something?

i dont remember.
i cant remember the feeling. the urge of wanting something.
how it felt like.

mungkinkah sbab its just too easy to get things going my way
or maybe ive lowered my standards these days.

but i do feel that i want something now.
adakah ia sbab i rasa nak isi kekosongan?
atau i memang Nak kan benda tu?

tapi adakah i perlukan benda tu?
tapi...once you've put aside everything, we can actually survive without alot of things in this world.
so the question now is....
Nakkan sesuatu benda tu ke perlukan sesuatu benda tu?
penting ke?

kalau saje2 nak, tak salah pun kan?
tapi kenape i rasa guilty pulak?
benda tu mungkin akan buat i happy.
too bad its not for sale.
not on the rack. not to be bought with money.

so, when was the last time i really wanted something?
i dont feel like i want it badly now but i do want it.
i rasa i patut nak benda tu badly tapi tak.
kenape?

i rasa, kalau cikgu karangan baca tis, dia akan fail me.
i dah terpesong from my topic dah.

question: is there a job that doesnt require me to talk?

answer:

Cinema Combat 101

Cinema Combat 101 -

Lesson 1:
If guy behind complains "Actress Tak Cantik", Turn & Ckp Sekuat2 "AKU SETUJU! AKU PUN RASA PEREMPUAN NI MMG TAK CANTIK" thn turn to his gf & go "KAN?KAN?KAN?

Lesson 1A: remember to smile big big to avoid being punched in the face. kalau takut tak nampak gigi, tolonglah pakai Darlie.

Lesson 2:
let any of ur electronic device go off whn guy behind keeps coughing & sneezing into your hair. thn stand up and shout, "H1N1 virus detected" and start running around like a mad man. Demand usher to get man out of cinema. if that fails, demand a refund from counter so that you can catch the next show.

its your mouth but Its MY Life.

oh look at me! look at me!
i'm King Julian!
i've got tits! i've got tits!

*wriggling my ass while saying so.

race to Which mountain?

my race has nothing do to with my credibility and capability.
and it has nothing to do with you.

my race proves nothing about who i really m
but unfortunately, ur mouth proved that you are an idiot to ask so.

Mo for Mohd or Monique

"may i know if you are malay or chinese?"

gathering uncles

aku tak suka siber kafe kat bawah block aku.
it has just occupied the space of a warung.

whn i decided to move in, i was excited sbab ada warung depan pintu masuk block aku.
i knew it will come wf roaches but it also meant that it came wf cute fat cats waiting by the tables.

skang, ada gerai kerang di luar cc tu.
aku bencilah. ada fat uncle gather untuk makan kerang di samping minum beer.
menyampah. they are polluting my sight.

Anime in my mind

the moving mountain wf a mooing milky meow is mourning on a monday morning moon

my own Hong Kong gangster movie.

Lip picked a fight wf a local gangster during work. Wide shot je, macam any Ekin Cheng Hong Kong Triad movie yang ada gangster chasing after the hero with a samurai sword. saje yg tak sama, Hong Kong punya ada road side stall cina. Ni? along pasar mlm melayu.

ganster couldnt get Lip, he came after me. i ok, selamba n steady je. i cant speak canto for nuts. tapi entah kenape, masa tu, canto i lancar je.smooth.

i managed the whole situation wf a clear mind. mungkin sebab i pakai shampoo Clear dan bukan Sunsilk.

steady je i apologize walaupun gangster tu was waving his sword in d air n shouting at me like a mad man. he wacked the cooler box where my legs were but i dint dock.

come to think of it, im amazed wf myself. kenape masa tu i blh mcm tu. org lain dah lari jauh2. all my teammates where 2 vehicles away. esp the guys. i felt like the gangster Lady boss at tat moment.

y do i put myself in such risk for a job tat is highly unappreciated. sebab i terlalu responsible n degil. all i could think of is to jaga the team n yes, i degil. klau dah set nak sesuatu, i dont give up. aku benci perangai ku ni.

im glad i was calm n kept my cool. i did earn some respect from there. yes yes, me no push over. siap i blh cakap, "u. girl! ciao!" i halau the girls aside then i step fwd to settle it. ello, mcm lah i bkn perempuan. ish. bodohnya i.

the whole fresco ended up the the balai. just before the gangster was being taken to the lock up, i stepped in to look for Lip. jeez. he saw me again.

mlm tu, sampai kat rumah je, a sudden chill hit me. takut jugak. lepas ni kalau i seorng2 n dia attack macam mana? maybe i might fight back. life n work sure has changed the timid me into a garang chick. hmm...is that good or bad.

ps: i bump into that mad gangster 2 days later in a hawker area. fortunately, he dint see me.

drama in the alley

so this is how it feel like to shout at each other in the middle of the road.
one of my best fren cum colleague created a whole drama
accusing me of not managing my team members well.

if i werent your best fren n was some1 more superior, would you've been so rude to me?
making accusations & shouting at me over the phone
creating a scene in d middle of the road

cant u talk properly?
its actually a very small matter

IQ test 1: dipetik drpd advertising screen from Pelita

Q :why do chinese eat more rice then japanese?


Answer: because there are more chinese in the world. :)

Ta-DA!!

uncle & his dog

i saw an uncle waitig to cross d road
beside him is his dog
both of them just lookg n waitg for d traffic to ease
comel giler

whn i grow old, i wish i could be like tat
just spendg time wf my pet
taking things slow
n loving life :)

hmm...i wonder can i leash my cat n dog together?
i cant choose. i like them both.

Perut!!

" ish ish ish... mons! Perut!!"
"yaya...i know. i feel like i'm 3 mths pregnant"
"3 je? more like 4"

##^%$*&$%&^(&)()@#@%$$^%%#@#!#!$%^^$#%#$#%$*&^@!!@

Summer times - it always makes my temper a little Hotter

i was liaising wf a girl called Summer.
she's interested to take on a job for my company.
but unfortunately she alr has a part time job which requires quite a bit of her time.

so it tot, mayb she's not the one.
but Summer persisted.
sms-ing me the whole nite n the nxt morning.
constantly asking question by question.

but u see...Summer doesnt speak proper England.
erm...like really buruk English.
so the tot of having a conversation wf her over the phone kills me.
esp when im liaising wf 10 other idiots.

so ya, i tried to breathe everytime i needed to reply her sms.
normally it comes wf a loud grant.

d last sms i replied her...i said "y dont u come over n we'll have a chat n we'll take it further from there"
basically i meant : "come over n we'll hv an interview"
* i hate saying d word "interview" as i feel its just too formal n makes me sound so superior-ish.
After that sms, i regreated not saying tat its an "interview".

her reply :" oh ok. do you want me to come to your office or we meet somewhr outside. i'm really busy tis week".
no sorry no sense of remorse or not even trying to appologize. period.

@#%$^$^&*^*&)(*)#%$#%^&@#T$%&%*(UGFVDREW%#$&^U(&*&$#@$#!#$&
it's called an interview! not a Yamcha session.

can u even imagine telling ur potential employer :
" erm...im very busy these days...would you like to meet me outside? maybe somewhere near where i work. you office is too far u know."

Freshies these days. they can never fail to amuse me.

Kelly's diary

Dear Diary,

He called. but i missed it.
4 times the phone rang but i dint manage to pick it up.
i'm glad i missed it.
i dont tink i will know how to react.

how shud i go about it?
i know him to well.
if he has made the 1st move, it means he still wants to be my fren.
but im not sure if i will hv the courage to face him.

i havent quite got over it.
im strong. i know i will
but mayb not right now.

since d incident,ive not slept.
i donno y. but i tend to wake up at 4am everynite
just staring....staring at the walls.

im tired...i need to slep
could you just help me sleep?

kelly

ugly girls

nvr in my entire life i've seen so many ugly girls in a day!
i know im evil but i cant help but bitch about it.
i'm running out of time.
i need a main talent for an upcoming tvc.
no matter how cantik they look in their gambar,
it always turn out dissapointing.

Celebrity dates

At TTDI

M : oh i had drinks wf Bunga somewhere here.
C : Where? when? Bunga? the Bunga
M: huh? Ashraf's Bunga? got other Bunga?
C: HOW COME?! WHY?!
M: oh tat was after shoot. wf sazzy n ashraf. i dint realize she was Bunga until they intro-ed me.
C: ah...kalau stakat sazzy n ashraf i dont care. but Bunga?! u tau tak all my frens in UK semua kenal Bunga. this is so not fair!
M: oh, is she famous?
C: of cos she is?! u bayangkan sampai my frens kat UK smua giler kat dia...Dia cantik n pandai berlakon.
M: (spaced out) i tink its good she married Ashraf. they make an ideal celebrity couple.
C: M!! tat's not d question!! kenape u boleh dapat lepak with Bunga?!!
M: byk org kat situ jugak pe.
C: arrrgggghhhhh ......(pegang M's head dgn kuat & makes a geram noise)
continue driving

At 1 Utama

M: mana tempat tu ek? dulu i pernah makan wf Eja kat 1 of the outlets here.
C: M!! kenape u dapat makan dgn Eja?!!
M: masa tu kami nak tonton wayang.
C: kenape u slalu dapat makan dgn org-org yg i suka? ish geramnya.
M: i tak rasa ape-ape pun. bukanlah kitorg lepak together selepas tu pun.
C: ahhh....Shut up!

Kelly & Ted part 1

it was an unplanned for nite out
it was after work
She was in a purple dress.
He, in his fav white T with blue jeans

Kelly & Ted has been the best pals since kids
They grew up together
They are not necessary compatible in terms of character
They both knew that they might kill each other if they dated
But definitely best frens to hang out wf.

Kelly has her disagreements with Ted's principle or lifestyle
but they enjoyed each others company
constantly picking up the pieces of what both lack in character frm each others' life
frens. just frens

Ted often seeked advice from Kelly
She was the more matured one
A year older but definitely much wiser in tots
He knew he can count on her
She knew she couldnt fully depend on him

U see. Ted was more like a fun fren to hang out wf
if u are in trouble,he might not be the 1st to be there for u
but Kelly has seen the loving side of Ted
He has personal goals yet family orientated
if one were to hear Ted speak to his little sis, one might melt
so gentle & meek, we would think that Ted is talking to his lover on the phone

Friday nite = Funday nite?

a couple of drinks as usual
music was good
but after the last time's outing where Ted let Kelly slipped away
Ted & Kelly had a mutual u/standing
never let Kelly out of sight
they nvr spoke about the incident after that but its a mutual u/standing

music was good
they started dancing
Kelly was quite good in her moves
Not necessarily the pretties or the hottest chick in the club
but she has definitely got the moves

Ted & Kelly talked in between
shouting into each others' ears
updating each other about what lastest in life

Kelly lost count of her drinks
after that everything went into a fast fwding mode

fast fwd, she's dancing wf another chick.

fast fwd, she has been dared by Ted to make the boys next table to buy her free drinks.
2 free drinks on her table, she got her way

fast fwd, Kelly is really slosh & she's tripped
Ted dragged her out

"Ted! i need to throw up! i need to throw up! your window's are not working"
They stop by the bus stop & Kelly pukes
not such a nice sight for the hottest dancer in the club.

"remember the last time u took care of me whn i was drunk? i will take care of you"

Ted arrives at Kelly apartment.
they stumble & makes hell load of noise
but who cares, at least both of them dont

they have been in many of such situations
Kelly knows that she's safe with Ted
its Ted and only Ted
& he just made a promise to take care of her

fast fwd..
he says he's gonna do her right...

its as though she's on drugs
her mind hears him but she cant retaliate

"Fuck! Kelly u are my best fren"
"Stop being pretentious Ted"

"Fuck! Dont say that!You are my only fren!"
"Remember you said you've just got another offer?!Im happy for u!"

"Stop it! stop it! Stop pretending"
"i need to go. you know the rules of the game"

"dont... dont go...you can sleep on the couch"
"kelly!kelly! listen! i need to go.."
"where's your paracetamol?"
"noo....stay..." Kelly grabs his hands

"kelly...shh...shh....i need to go. your hand bag is here. "

"how are u gonna go?i cant open d door for u. i need to puke!"
"no kelly..i need to go! fuck! pls stop! fuck! u r my best fren! "

"Stop it! Ted! Stop it!, i dint ask you to be responsible! Stop pretending! Stop being pretendious! Stop pretending!"
"fuck! kelly stop!Stop!"
"listen, i will lock up and i will throw the keys in"
"noooooo...."

"what time is your flight tmr?"
"8"
"ok, im gonna set ur alarm at 8"
"no....8 is too late...i need to b thr 7"
"ok 7..."

Whn Kelly woke up, Kelly dint just missed her flight
She missed the closes fren tat she has in this lonely city
The fren that she trusted her safety with
The fren that protected her too many times
why did he stop protecting her this time?

Head still pounding
Kelly couldnt stop thinking
is this her naive-ness that has cost her all this?
or is it pure human behaviour

a sense of betrayal sets in...

rimas

aku rasa rimas.
aku takleh nak bernafas.
aku tak pasti sampai bila aku kena mengulangi kerje yg sama.
sampai bila kehidupan ku akan berubah.
i need a change.
perubahan yg dinanti-nantikan kenape jauh sgt.
aku rimas dgn kehidupan ku yg makin membosankan.

i tot i saw light at the end of the tunnel
bila terdpt sorg membagi ku peluang,
i jump onto it without much thinking
aku ingat nilah big break ku
org tu lesap secara tiba-tiba
senyap je.

aku benci sinario mcm ni
aku menyampah ppl who keep me hanging
aku benci being left in the dark

maafkan aku kerana BM ku yg tidak sebegitu baik.

3 fishballs , a stick & some chili sauce

"Race to Witch Mountain" was disappointing but the cinema was pack.
2 of my frens slept during the show.
when the show ended, we let the crowd go 1st. partly bcoz my frens needed to "sober up"

3 foreign cleaners immediately started cleaning up the place whn d show ended.
they look like Ghostbusters wf the vacuum cleaner on their backs.
when the crowd finally cleared the area, we decided to get our butts off the seat.

one of the cleaner found a plastic bag on the floor.
he shouted out to his partner.
they shouted bk at each other in a language that i dint understand but im sure he was very happy.
maybe he has found some valuables in that bag?

the cleaner placed the plastic bag nicely on a arm rest near him.
just went i was crossing him.
i managed to get a glimpse of what was inside it.

it was a stick of fishballs with some chili sauce.
left over food that might be the 2 workers' supper.

My heart sank.
he was so happy over the stick of fishballs he has just found
he countnt stop grinning.

it reminded me of the trip to Indonesia
when arrived in Bandung from Jakarta
a crowd of Indonesia rushed up the train offering to help carry our luggage
when no one wanted their services, they started looking for leftover food on the seats

one of them found a piece of cake in a box.
he swallowed it immediately.
unkempted, they look like they were starving.
i couldnt stand the sight.

im glad, im lucky.
yet sad that im lucky.

life is unfair for us & for many more...

time zone

d timing on my post is wrong.
but i'll let it b
so that no one will knw d actual time of my post
so that i can blog during work hours
& d ppl that know who am i wont know that im not working

Arranged Dating

entah kenape, lately there seem to be a bunch of my frens having the same problem.

Scenario 1:
Sasha : u know wat, my dad called me just now. dia nak i gi Selayang utk gi this function last week
tu sbenarnya dia nak arrange i jumpe my cousin. diorg tgh fikir nak nikah kan i dgn dia. i
tak kenal budak tu pun. kami pernah jumpe pun mcm tu je. tak ckp ape2 pun.

* Sasha is 25 now.

Scenario 2:

Susan: im so upset. My brother called y'day. he wants to intro tis guy to me. i refused. thn my
mum call saying "aiyah, just be frens only. nothing 1" thn my sister called to ask me to meet
that guy also. i so fed up. y must they force me. somemore that guy is 33.

Mo: erm...Susan, 33 is ngam. u already 27 this year. ( i said it matter of factly)

i tink its the season of parents & family members worrying abt their children not getting married. its the 21st century but yet somethings just dont change. probably its our parents' way of showing their love & concern.

if it was me mum...she has a totally different way of showing her love & affection.

tbc..

testing testing testing 1 2 3

its 8.50pm wednesday where uncle pasar malam is shouting "4 3ringgit! 4 3ringgit!"

i just created my 1st blog
i'm not sure what kind of blog i want it to be

should it be a blog that pens my daily life stories?
(i guess that's not gonna be very interesting. besides, i wont like the idea of whats going on in my life to be on display)
should it be a blog that i write all the crazy ideas ive in my head?
(but then what if someone steals the idea and not credit me?)

i have too much fear
thats why i never get to do the things i want to or would like to.

i talk too much and not do anything
i'm just a little innocent cat writing my 1st blog entry

testing testing 123...will anyone read my blog i wonder
testing testing 123...even if no one does, its ok
testing testing 123...its going to be an outlet that no one shall judge me for my writings & post
testing testing 123... you are guessing who is this idiot writing this
testing testing 123... am i irritating you? i hope i am.

have a great day to you too!